I can t feel bad

I can’t feel bad, not, not I…
Because I am probably a human | without heart and mind,
Because I am probably a human, who’s birth | had no sense.
I can’t feel bad, I can’t feel pain,
Smiling is forbidden | and feeling sad is prohibited.
Getting off step anywhere | to the right or to the left,
Doing something like I think it’s right…
Everything is contravened to rules.

You’re nothing if you are not with them, you’re nothingness!
Let’s obey them, make their wishes true, not yours,
Because not you, but they are Their Highnesses.
Are you not creeping about on tiptoe, not dancing with salvers,
hey, slave, maybe someone needs to remind you in front of whom
you are walking around and breathing?
Be sure, you’ll be reminded immediately.

I can’t feel bad, I can’t feel pain,
I must have a strained smile, only when they say okay, you can smile.
?You must? - there are two words they love very much:
Everybody’s, who’s fear is strange, otherwise.

I can’t feel bad.

2020